1. |
Ruin
04:12
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Welcome
This is what’s left of my heart
I know you’ve wanted in here for years
So welcome
Sit in my chair, look at my art
Never mind the flame-licked drapes or shattered chandelier
Kick off your shoes
Stay awhile and sing the blues with me
But before you do
Heed my warning
I’m a ruin
I only haunt this heart
I would give my soul, but it’s already gone
I will have you because I’m lonely
But I will use you up, and make a ruin of you
Listen
You can’t clean up this place
I mean, I’ll let you try if you want to
But listen, you have a beautiful face
It’s not the one I want, but I can make due
Go hang your coat
Stay awhile and tell a joke for me
Make yourself at home
But I will say I told you so
I’m a ruin
I only haunt this heart
I would give you my soul, but it’s already gone
I will have you if you ask me
But I will use you up, and make a ruin of you
You don’t have to live like this
You deserve every happiness I once knew
Joy, commitment
With your body to thee worship
Children, and years of bliss
For me there will be no more bells
I am just a shell
And this is my living hell
I’m a ruin
I only haunt this heart
I would give my soul, but it’s already gone
I will have you because I’m weak
But I will use you up, and make a ruin of you
I’m a ruin
And I’ll make a ruin of you
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2. |
Heartbreaker
03:21
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Waking up with you for the thousandth time
Sipping coffee and juice, reading the New York Times
You told me I'm the only one
But now you think you've had your fun
You hope I had a good time, goodbye - we're done
I got you inside my head
Playing every moment over and over again
I thought we'd survive, instead
You're a heartbreaker
And now I'm heartbroken
Waking up with him before the sun
We pour coffee and then read the Chicago Sun
He tells that I've changed his life
And now he wants me as his wife
Well we had a good run, was fun - goodbye
I still got you inside my head
Playing every moment over and over again
I thought we'd survive, instead
You're making heartbreakers
Of the heartbroken
You're making heartbreakers
Of the heartbroken
You are, you're making heartbreakers
You know, he was a good man
I should've warned him
I, I should've warned him
That I'm an imposter
How does it feel siring so many monsters?
I got you inside my head
Playing every moment over and over again
I thought we'd survive, instead
You're a heartbreaker
And now I'm heartbroken
I got you inside my head
Playing every moment over and over again
I thought we'd survive, instead
You're making heartbreakers
I got you inside my head
Playing every moment over and over again
I thought we'd survive, instead
You're a monster
And now I am
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3. |
Miss the Signs
03:23
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I wish you were here by my side
Your song in my ear, your hand on my thigh
The highway is clear, unlike my mind
I'm dreaming as I drive
I've been inside my own head for days
But this fantasy is keeping me awake
I want to get lost in the night
Stuck at a road stop neither of us like
Eat til we drop, laugh til we cry
Tell me it's not too late
I want to get lost and miss the signs
I never liked adventure but you changed my mind
Sleep with the stars, lose track of time
Tell me it's not too late to try
We could see the world, you and I
There's no place on this earth
that isn't better with your hand in mine
It's taken me way too long to realize
And now I'm dreaming as I drive
I've been inside my own head for days
Watching you kiss all my breath away
Getting tired of the twists and the turns we take
But at least this fantasy is keeping me awake
I want to get lost in the night
Stuck in a small town nobody can find
Eat til we drop, laugh til we cry
Tell me it's not too late
I want to get lost and miss the signs
I never liked adventure but you changed my mind
Sleep in your arms, make up for lost time
Tell me it's not too late to try
I know we've made mistakes and
Messed up the navigation
But let's find another way, then
Because I want you in my life
Where do you want to go?
I promise we'll take it slow
Get lost on all the backroads
Oh just tell me we can try
In the night
Stuck at a road stop neither of us like
Eat til we drop, laugh til we cry
Tell me it's not too late
I want to get lost and miss the signs
I never liked adventure but you changed my mind
Sleep with the stars, lose track of time
Tell me it's not too late
I want to get lost in the night
Stuck at a road stop neither of us like
Lost with you
Tell me it's not too late
Lost with you
I never liked adventure but you changed my mind
Sleep with the stars, lose track of time
Tell me it's not too late
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4. |
All I Dream Of
03:10
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Up til 3am on the phone, telling all our secrets
There I go again, now you know every little weakness
It’s probably nothing
I know I tend to get ahead of myself
But I’m cautiously loving
Getting caught in the spell
Of falling in love
So in love
You could be everything I’ve waited for and all I dream of
Am I what you want?
What you want
Or am I the fool that I’ve been taken for and can’t escape from?
I know I’ll fall one way or the other
And I hope it’s not apart
Up at 8am in your arms, staring at the ceiling
Trying to ignore the alarms waking up my feelings
But there’s no way around it
We’re at the edge and I’m protecting my heart
If you throw me off balance
I don’t know if I can stop
From falling in love
So in love
You could be everything I’ve waited for and all I dream of
Am I what you want?
What you want
Or am I the fool that I’ve been taken for and can’t escape from?
I know I’ll fall one way or the other
And I hope that you’re next to me, deep breath
Head over heels, right off the edge
Take my hand and never let me go
Are we falling in love?
So in love
You could be everything I’ve waited for and all I dream of
Am I what you want?
What you want
Or am I the fool that I’ve been taken for and can’t escape from?
I know I’ll fall one way or the other
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5. |
Fall For the Enemy
03:35
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Beautiful eyes, you lock me in your gaze
Try though I might, I cannot look away
You - you're not what I expected to find
Now I'm forgetting why I should run from your side
One gentle kiss, the pain alleviates
Poisonous lips annihilate me
And every dream that I trade for this bliss
But who can resist? I'm starving alone in the wilderness
Beautiful distraction, keep me hypnotized and I
Fall for the enemy
Powerless reaction, I am paralyzed and now
You get the best of me
Is there no one safe from your deceit and lies?
I know I've been told this road isn't paved with gold
But I see it glitter and I'm sold, falling slow
For the enemy
My hands are tied, you've captured your next slave
But it feels justified, I don't even try to break free
And now I'm blind to the truth at my side
That we win before we begin if we stand and fight this
Beautiful distraction, keep me hypnotized and I
Fall for the enemy
Powerless reaction, I am paralyzed and now
You get the best of me
Is there no one safe from your deceit and lies?
I know I've been told this road isn't paved with gold
But I see it glitter now I'm sold, falling
Falling, falling, falling
We're going down
Beautiful distraction, keep me hypnotized and I
Fall for the enemy
Powerless reaction, I am paralyzed and now
You get the best of me
Is there no one safe from your deceit and lies?
I know I've been told this road isn't paved with gold
But I see it glitter now I'm sold, falling slow
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6. |
Dream of Us
04:42
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You know, yeah you know that we agreed
But you just can't get me off your mind
We'll avoid disaster if I leave
Disaster of the lasting kind
But baby, you're doing fine, just keep moving on
I'm gonna watch you thrive, hit that ground and run
No, I won't be honest – I love you too much
To say what would make you stay
Oh, but I fight every feeling inside that would claim you as my love
Oh, I try not to tell you I died when we came through the fire, love
Oh and I'm still burning down this dream of us
But my heart just won't ignite
All the parts that we did right
Oh baby, we were perfectly right
I know, yeah I know that we agreed
But here you are, by my side
Oh how do you suggest that we proceed?
Or have all these months for you been kind?
Well I guess you're doing fine like I knew you would
Yeah, you just needed time to forget about us
I want to be honest and tell you the truth
That I'm still in love with you
Oh, I fight every feeling inside that would claim you as my love
Oh, I try not to tell you I died when we came through the fire, love
Oh and I'm still burning down this dream of us
But my heart just won't ignite
All the things that we did right
Baby, we were perfect together
What if we run away?
What if we follow this?
What if we stoke the fire higher and destroy everything?
In the morning, we would wake
Leaving disaster in our wake
So, for your sake
I'll fight every feeling inside that would claim you as mine
I'll try not to tell you I'm lying
Oh and I will burn on down this dream of us
Oh but my heart, it won't
Oh but my heart, it won't
My heart, my heart, my heart...
I'll be fine
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7. |
Carry Your Love
03:58
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Ooh, I can't carry your love
Ooh, I can't carry your love
I haven't said your name in 24 hours
It's a complicated game, but I'm on to you now
If you think you can have me like this, you're mistaken
I won't be the one who falls
Ooh, I can't carry your love
Ooh, I can't carry your love
I haven't said your name in a week now
And I haven't gone insane yet. It's a miracle
I think I can finally escape you
As long as I don't think about your face, your hands, your mouth
Ooh, I can't carry your love
Ooh, I can't carry your love
Ooh, I can't carry your love
I haven't said your name in 24 minutes
I can't forget the way it falls off my tongue
I just want a taste of us… Can I call you?
Even though you're probably with her
Ooh, I can't carry your love
Ooh, I can't carry your love
Ooh, I can't carry your love
Carry Your Love
I haven't said your name in 24 hours
You still have me chained, but I will get out
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8. |
Red Flags
04:06
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I know that there's no restitution, babe
I'll never return to the person I once knew
Don't say you made no contribution, babe
I let you burn right through, my heart isn't fireproof
And if I focus for a moment on the day that we met
And really pay attention to the words that you said
Would I recognize that compromise
Would really only ever mean my sacrifice?
And if I wasn't so distracted by the shape of your lips,
The curve of your smile, the sound of you listing
All the ways you worship me
Maybe I would figure out exactly
Where my walls came down
And my head was filled with your lies
I must admit, I wanted to believe it
A perfect match, a fairy tale distracted
From all your lies
Yeah I guess I was blind
Til your true colors flashed
Now all I see are red flags
The things you used to love about me
Now you say they're a weakness
And I told you I'd work on it
Now I've forgotten who I am
I let you burn me down, but I'm taking back my crown
You use me like I am a prop
To paint a pretty picture of the person you're not
You can fool them and kid yourself
Can't wait to hear you blame this on my mental health
It's true I was crazy for you
But you're not what I thought
You were just pretending
I must admit, I wanted to believe it
A perfect match, the fairy tale distracted me
From all your lies
Yeah I was blind
Til your true colors flashed
Now you got me seeing red
I admit, I've been holding onto promises
That you won't keep unless I'm trying to leave
No there's no happy ending here
And I'm done spending tears for all we had
Cause now all I see are red flags
I'm seeing red
Yeah, you got me seeing red
I'm onto you
I must admit, I wanted to believe it
A perfect match, a fairy tale distracted
From all your lies
Yeah I guess I was blind
Til your true colors flashed
And now I'm seeing red
No there's no happy ending here
I'm done spending tears for all we had
Cause now all I see are red flags
I'm seeing red
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9. |
Menagerie of Monsters
02:40
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You and I - is this a secret?
I know you like to keep it clean
No prying eyes to keep you honest
What do you hide when you hide with me?
If you think you're clever
Then you've never weathered anyone like me
I've been training all my life
Guess your number's up, right?
Cause when she calls mine
Nah nah nah nah nah nah
I'm not gonna lie
Those pretty eyes - are you scared now?
You can't erase all the things you've seen
Do you like my shelves and all my monsters?
Now you're my latest, favorite thing
Do you want to play?
Misbehave, say the ways you plan to
Hurt me, abuse and drain me dry?
Now you want to know if
You'll make it out alive
Nah nah nah nah nah nah
I'm not gonna lie
Don't you want my affection?
I thought you said you were mine
Won't you join my collection?
La la la la la
You'll be fine
Ooops
Nah nah nah nah nah nah
I'm not gonna - Shhh
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10. |
I Want You
03:49
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I'm trying to keep my hands to myself
Seems like you're here with somebody else
I shouldn't waste my time, but I'm far too deep in my wine
I think I need professional help
Are you staring at me across the room?
Do you like to watch me watching you?
Not trying to fall in love
I've had enough
But you got that kind of smile I want something to do with
No lie, you got me acting foolish
I'm fine when I'm on my own
Clear skies, alone
But baby, when we touched I felt the lightning
So much for denying I want you
You crossed the room with something to tell
Lips to my ear so you don't have to yell
I hope your friend won't mind if I let you take your time
I think I'm probably going to hell
You think that you saw me here last week
Really? And did your dream have better drinks?
Not trying to fall in love
I've had enough
But you got that kind of laugh I want something to do with
See that? I'm acting foolish
I'm fine when I'm on my own
Clear skies, alone
But baby, when we touched I felt the lightning
So much for denying I want you
Move in closer, leave with me tonight
Not trying to get you in a fight, but this feels right
Yeah I've been broken, clearly I take the cynical view
But baby, even though that's true
Somehow I want you
Not trying to fall in love
I've had enough
But you got that kind of smile I want something to do with
No lie, you got me acting foolish
I'm fine when I'm on my own
Clear skies, alone
But baby, when we touched I felt the lightning
So much for denying I want you
Not trying to fall in love
I've had enough
But you got that kind of laugh I want something to do with
See that? I'm acting foolish
I'm fine when I'm on my own
Clear skies, alone
But baby, when we touched I felt the lightning
So much for denying I want you
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11. |
New Fire
05:02
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Are we playing games tonight? I think you've had one too many
I never can tell by morning light if you really mean all the things that you tell me
When you're kissing sweet words into my wrists or pulling deep sighs from my lips
Are you paying attention?
Are you gonna play around in my head?
I know it's a good time, you know I keep you stimulated
Really it's a shame that I'm out of my mind
Got no one else to blame for this, but I don't want
I never wanted anyone else, but you're never satisfied
And I can't help myself, no
I keep coming back
Can't get enough of that
New fire, new fire, new fire for you
I got that new fire, new fire, new fire
Are we showing our hands tonight? I can see your excuses are many
And that look in your eye… Do you really believe in what you're trying to sell me?
When you're pulling quickened breaths from my lips and flash that wicked smile I can't resist
I'm caught in suspension
Are you just gonna play around in my bed?
Well, I guess it's fine, you know I keep you stimulated
Though you make me wait, it's a matter of time
Before you show your face and I remember I don't want
I never wanted anyone else, but you're never satisfied
If only I could help myself but
I keep coming back
I can't get enough of that
New fire, new fire, new fire for you
I got that new fire, new fire, new fire
New fire, new fire, new fire for you
I got that new fire, new fire, new fire
Now I've been meaning to tell you, though you're still kissing me
Between your caresses if I could get a word in edgewise, please hear me
You should know that I'm leaving
Even though I still believe in us
You will go, you'll go on teasing
Until someone makes you burn
Then you won't stop returning for that
You won't get enough of that
New fire
And trust me
It's gonna burn you down
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Joliet4 Kansas City, Missouri
Joliet is an independent singer/songwriter and live music streamer from Kansas City. She has a unique and powerful vocal
style that is often compared to Hayley Williams, Bishop Briggs and Kimbra.
Joliet started on websites like Smule and Twitch, introducing her original songs as she gained confidence. Now her listeners fund her music, which she records and releases for them regularly.
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